Selene's Enlightment

Changes and uncertainty in the weather, changes in my very own emotions. I'm not really much into astrology (as in checking my horoscope I mean...) but I am into the characteristics of the people born under certain signs as they are usually very heads on.

Being born under the astrological sign of Cancer, I've seen way too many similarities between the characteristics and my way of being. Astrologically and Zodiac-wise, everything fits me to a T.

I am a Cancer born in the year of the Snake, as well as born during the hour of the Snake. According to the Chinese Zodiac, my element is Earth; it is the element which rules all others, my destined number is 5 and my ruling season is the summer. I was born July 11, 1989. Since I was born, I have always loved the water (though I also fear it and am not supposed to be around it much due to my health problems), I feel most comfortable in rainy conditions and when I am near water. I am Cancer, which is a water element. Now why couldn't I be a water element in the Chinese Zodiac? Simply because I share very little attributes with the descriptions as to what one born this element would be like...

Being Cancer, my ruling planet is the Moon and lately I have analyzed the course of my emotions. Cancer is a very emotional sign, possibly the most emotional of the twelve signs; especially since we are ruled by the Moon. We are moody and we tend to be depressive, but it is because we are, most likely, more in tuned with our feelings...And I realize that this makes us difficult to understand at times, and we may get people angry with our sudden mood changes.

With the recent changes in the weather and the horrible uncertainty of: Is it going to rain? IS there going to be a hurricane? Why is everybody just rushing around?. I'm somebody that just prefers it when people tell you "This is what's going to happen." and there are no doubts about anything, because I know what to expect.

This is something I do subconsciously, I tend to believe that this doesn't affect me but it actually does emotionally. This week I have felt emotionally very weak, feeling like I want to cry and not wanting to know anything about anybody. Every negative and positive thought had been floating along in my mind, worries...anxieties...hopefulness...A cornucopia of feelings, as I always say.

I have a difficulty sorting these feelings out, and the weather wasn't helping me with that. I wasn't sure if I wanted it to rain, or if I just wanted the damn thing to go away and let me continue life peacefully. Yesternight I was close to tears, as I have been this whole week; I felt as if I had no voice, I didn't want my shistas to call me, I didn't want to talk to my parents. I felt abandoned when I was the one wanting to be left alone. I felt like no matter how much I talked, nobody wanted to listen to me...Last night I prayed for some ray of hope, I wished I could rid my mind of any and all negative things.

When I woke up it was amazingly sunny in the morning, sadly I knew this meant that we had classes today; though I was glad that I didn't have to spend the day alone in my house. The sun was shining but inside I felt just as sad and empty as I did the night before. I went to the university, putting on a fake mask of happiness and went to Annie's class.

If I was random with my negative feelings, Annie was even more random (or maybe just drunk).
She was so beautifully...I don't know what word to put...maybe crazy, funny...I have no idea, she was simply Annie. She was complaining about the equipment for power point presentations and how she uses one of the projectors during her first class (before ours) and how somebody comes and takes it because another professor has it requested for his/her class. She has to call to the computer lab to have somebody (usually Carmelo) bring a laptop and a portable in focus, set it up so she can use it for our class.

Carmelo arrives to the classroom and, stupidly, asks Annie if he should set it up. Annie looked at him, snickered and said "Well SHYEAH! Like, would you trust that kind of technology with me? We all know I'm the most retarded being when it comes to computers. "Should I set it up...?" Kkkk! Please...! What kind of question is that? - -;;" So Carmelo sets up the equipment and Annie looks like a little girl trying to peak and see what's going on and what's he doing. Annie, during an ergodic moment, whacks Carmelo on the head with her arm and jump-drive ^^;; hugs his head and begins apologizing.

Once everything is set up, Carmelo asks Annie which presentation she's going to open: "I don't even remember what title I put ^^;; I think it's that one...Suprasegmental...thingies..." He opens the document and the screen with the slides at one side and one big slide with the content pops up. Annie then begins trying to make the slideshow begin. Unfortunately, she begins clicking on the toolbar near the watch and computer icons that indicate if you are connected to the internet and whatnot. We see her desperately clicking and decide to ask her "Professor...? What are you doing?" "I'm trying to make the screen...-*starts moving her arms up and like in a circular motion* I don't know, umm...big?" So we pull the projector back to make the whole thing look bigger "NOOOO!!! Not that >_<" So we managed to figure out that what she wanted was the slideshow to begin...When we did that, she started explaining the Juncture rules. “Know what I learned today? That on the computer you can do the little diagonal lines *draws a / on the chalkboard* o.o” “A slash…?” “Yeah, that ^_^ Sorry the power point’s a piece of crap >_< minute="0" hour="22">10pm with a glass of wine on the side! Hoping it will rain so you don’t have to go to work the next day! TT_TT And the damn rain never came! FUCK! TT_TT I was seriously pissed at life! Oh…right...the class, let's keep going ^^;;" so she keeps going, it was impossible not to laugh every 24 seconds...^_^ She was...so full of life yet at the same time tired of it hehehe...She cheered me up instantly...^^ Oh my...there was one part, where she was going to use the overhead projector and she begins touching where you put the transparencies. "Oh for the love of God! Why must professors always leave stuff here? - -;;" she picks it up and scans it, from a distance I could tell it was Edgardo's transparency sheet of the classroom with the items and everything in french. "Oh...this belongs to the director of the department, from his french class. I'm going over there most likely after the class is finished, I should take this to him." she keeps staring at the transparency "Nah, screw it - -;; I don't feel like being charitable today. I'm having a bad hair day" and she just...^^;;; left it in the classroom "Did you guys know I spent all of last night just by the window hoping it would rain??? NADA TT_TT Then my brother calls at 6am to ask if I had already gone to sleep and I was like, no...and then he said "Well don't do it porque las clases no las suspendieron ^_~" And I was like, FUCK! TT_TT"...hehehe...she really brightened up my day, but it wasn't enough to stop the mess I was going through... I skipped mom's class to go with some of my classmates to eat at Subway, apparently Annie's laziness somehow took over us :P I had fun there with Emily and Stephanie, we had a really nice chat and stuff. We headed back to the University and I went to McManus, stayed in mom's class for a while and then went outside because I wasn't getting a good internet signal all the way up on the third floor. I went outside and it was raining...softly...and for no apparent reason, I just started walking around the parking lot while getting wet...I stopped for a while, took out my mp3 player and started listening to Péché d'Envie, a song by Carla Bruni. Getting wet, listening to that song and singing along just washed away all my thoughts, problems and negative feelings, restoring me once again to my natural old self. I walked around with a genuine smile on my face...went to Mercedes' class and she asked me "Did you get caught in the rain? you're all wet o.o" "Yes...I got wet ^_^" "De donde venias?" "Nowhere...I just...felt like taking a walk in the rain ^_^" "You could get sick! O_O " "I know...^_^ but I needed to ^_~" I had a very nice time with my parents after class finished, we went to the mall so we could eat, went home...t'was raining on the way over :P Ummm...I went to sleep since neither of my shissies were online...:( And I started feeling sad...but I pushed it away and went to sleep. Like an hour or so after, I woke up because I felt a light keeping me awake and I thought "Damn streetlight...it's brighter than usual >_<" oh, I neglected to mention that I was sleeping with my head towards the window, something I rarely do. So I wake up, look through the window...and it was the full moon, shining directly on me...I felt...so renewed, so full of hope...it was like I was reborn and everything just melted away... It's been, as Annie said, a long hellish week...yet in the end, it was worth it...

Incidentally, the security and safety measures in la Caotica are really something to laugh at...We have something much better than a lame old fire extinguisher, I tip my hat off to whomever wrote this wise message...

Ciao my loves ^_~

Ryoujoku no Ame: La Lluvia de Insultos

Bueno, hoy fue mi primer dia viendo una clase desde el punto de vista de un profesor. Pude notar lo indecentes, irresponsables, desconciderados y malagradecidos que pueden ser. Salio de mi corazon el ayudar a Ada Hilda, pero un favor asi no lo vuelvo a hacer hasta que yo sea profesora.

Este post supongo que es para desahogarme un poco...

Desde antes de que empezara la clase de Español, ya habia gente pidiendome no solo la lista de asistencia para firmar y irse, si no que tambien la presentación a powerpoint. Por supuesto que no hice nada de eso, le hice una promesa a Ada Hilda y francamente no salía de mi el dejarlos hacer eso. Cuando llego la hora de la clase espere un ratito, como 10 minutos antes de comenzar como tal con la presentación ya que siempre hay estudiantes que no llegan temprano a la clase. Pues comienzo la presentación y empieza a llegar gente alborotada, con celulares, comida y otras cuestiones, pero ya yo habia empezado y les aclare que yo no tenia inconveniente alguno en que cuando se acabara la presentación yo podia regresar atras y ponerles lo que perdieron. Ahora, vamos a decir que como 8 estudiantes sumamente impropios seguian jodiendo y supongo que hasta hablando de mi y lo "hija 'e puta" que soy, simplemente porque me creo la profesora.

I don't want to be putting on airs that I was a professor and that I felt great being the one in charge, no, I hate being in charge especially for a bunch of fucktards. Well okay, let's be honest...It wasn't the whole group, but it still pissed me off. Once I got home, I remembered that huh...It was only the girls the ones that were acting up with me.

"Gracias mi amor, eres la mejor...!!!" en voz alta. "Si, la mejor hija 'e puta...jijiji Pues claro, como es hija de una profesora..." en voz bajita. Okay, first of all: WTF? o.o What does my mother have to do with that? I believe that they don't know if my mother was a prostitute before she married my father, and if they do know then...que me lo digan a la cara.

Look...all I did, was pass the slides....nothing else. Se querian ya ir? I wasn't stopping them, they could sign and go for all I care, but they weren't getting the information from me. If they are fucking talking loudly on the cellphone when they are not supposed to, I just kindly asked them to step out so I could continue with the presentation. Carajo y si terminaron de escribir? Just fucking say so...I'm not psychic, pero es decir "termine" no "pasalo para que ya nos vayamos!" eso es una falta de respeto y simplemente no te voy a hacer caso, punto. Tambien, si todos ya terminaron y quedan dos "pelagatos" como papi diria, que no terminaron porque estaban hablando y ya era la 3ra vez que te dicen "vira para atras porque no terminamos de escribir" no, tampoco lo iba a hacer, me estaban atrasando y se los dije "Lo siento, ya todos ellos terminaron y se quieren ir. Ustedes estaban hablando. Al final de la presentaci'ón pongo lo que se les quedo"

Pues al final, viene la pequeña sabelotodo pelagata a decirme "Mira, sabes que? No me pongas el slide, solo vengo a decirte que tu no puedes estar con esas actitudes porque aqui tu no eres la profesora para estar mandando" y se fue, pues good riddance y no sere la profesora, pero si fuy la que la profesora dejo acargo del grupo and I wasn't there so some idiots could trample all over me. So well...the class finished and I just walked over to mom, whom was sitting in the back using my laptop since she had a meeting online. My mom told me lo que dijeron las pendangas aquella cuando se fueron y las otras idiotas still bitching about my so-called attitude.

I wasn't the professor, I know that...I didn't have attitude, I had my defenses up because I know what fucktards students can be. While I was not the professor, I was the one in charge and they had to respect that. Obviously since we live in a society where people just can't seem to follow instructions and feel like they need to stand up to authority, they'll never be satisfied. To them there is only pendeja o hija 'e puta, o muy nice y "culiabierta" como dice papi o muy puta porque no se deja joder por ellos. Saben que? Prefiero ser la hija 'e puta que ser la pendeja, bien tipo Annie y por eso es que yo la admiro tanto. Porque nada que tu hagas es suficiente para ellos ya que son gente no civilizada que viven por el desorden.

Pero pues, yo solo pienso en que fueron como 5 pendejitas lo que me arruinaron la experiencia y eso no me va a desanimar en mis deseos de querer ser una profesora de ingles, eso solo me va a motivar más. Porque desgraciadamente yo se que asi y quizas hasta peor son los estudiantes de hoy en dia que solo van a perder el tiempo miserablemente en la universidad. Dentro de cada grupo estan sus pendejos y pendejas, pero tambien estan los estudiantes buenos y por esos son por los que te debes preocupar.

An Ergodic Day for the Random Girl o.o

Today was certainly a weird day full of random events...o.o

Let's start off with Philosophy 312, Philosophy of Man:

The professor came in a bit late, started talking to us about the test we have on Wednesday and started the new topics. Suddenly, I have no idea why o.o guess I was half-asleep, he drew a random "cow" (or at least he swears it was a cow) on the chalkboard. So he draws the cow and draws like...hay or something next to the boxy looking cow. "The cow eats the hay and the hay's natural form changes, turning itself into cow form as well." then he draws a loose screw next to the cow..."If the cow eats the screw then the cow is screwed, the screw stays in its natural form since it can't turn into a cow. Not only that, when the cow digests it, it comes out all crappy at the end of the cow." Yeah...gotta love Nestor, hai? ^_^ I miss taking German with him...*sighs* Anyway, he jumps from topic to topic: Leukemia, vaccines coming from cows originally (that was on topic), Hospital screw-ups, mouse traps, dead rats, his wife with a broom, and the rat with pretty eyes...
Que lindo es Nestorcito...^_^

So after Nestor's class was over, I headed over to the McManus building so I could wait for my Spanish 132 class.

Once there...I come across Carmelo, who tells me a really...random...story that can only stem from Annie's beautiful way of being ^^;;; and here I will share it with you:

It seems that on Saturday there was an activity at the university, I can't really remember what program it was...But Annie and Shirley were supposed to be there. Well, the most ergodic English professors, Annie and Shirley, arrived late and to make matters worse...Annie walked in to the meeting dancing...outdated dances - -;; and well...there weren't any seats left. Shirley panics a little bit (the way only she can panic -.-) and Annie just looks around, spots Carmelo and tells Shirley "Okay, here's what we'll do: You go sit somewhere in the back and I'll sit on Carmelo's lap ^_^" "O_O ANNIE ARE YOU NUTS? YOU CAN'T SAY THAT IN FRONT OF A STUDENT!!!" "Kkk...and why not? He's my student and he knows that this is my normal classroom behavior." to which Shirley just stayed equally as shocked as she was, as well as embarrassed. Then came the lunch, Carmelo was sitting with A&S and Annie talked about her childhood and how she wanted to be a nun...

Yes, I'm not making it up and I trust Carmelo didn't either since we both know Annie -.-
Well, she said that she wanted to become a nun but didn't because her uncle told her that nuns get their boobs cut off (exact words from Annie) Shirley kept insisting that there were students present, to which Annie kept saying "They know how I work, nothing should shock them by now" Yes...ironically nothing she says shocks us XD

Carmelo went to his class after finishing that tale and I am left alone...in a musty hallway, full of creepy students...But none quite as creepy as *ominous music*

Danny the Shadow (or pedophile, as Harita would call him)...*insert horror movie scream here*

There I was, quietly enjoying my beautiful Dir en grey concert, In Weal or Woe...Headbanging in the safety of an empty hallway, that is until I saw IT coming up the stairs. Slinking up the stairs like a lizard in heat, hunting its little prey...

He opened his mouth to attack! With his soft raspy pedophilic voice "Heeeeyyyyy...look who's here, la nena bella..." and he eyed me with a coy smile and looked at my girls TT_TT I felt sooo violated...*shudders* He coiled himself around the sweet, innocent, helpless victim and hugged her for like 24 seconds TT_TT He tried to see what she was doing on the computer, and Niimu just left the In Weal or Woe video running -.- *sighs* Long story short, he left but not before saying "I'll see YOU later, sweet stuff...^_~" O_O GAHHHH

So...then came Ada Hilda's class, where she gave us some really bad news regarding a family member whom I think is on life support... =( So she won't be coming in on Wednesday because she and her brothers and sisters will be making the choice I guess...*sighs* I felt so bad for her...
Pero, so we wouldn't miss a day of class, she assigned me to be the professor on Wednesday for her two 132 sections ^_^ So it will be my first taste at being a professor. Srta. Rodriguez, the way she presented me to her other section. Hahaha, who would've thought that my first class would be a Spanish class? XD No te rias Hara! It's not like I'm going to do much, it's just explaining her powerpoint presentation, passing and keeping the assistence lists and stuff. :P But I found that cute and I'm glad to be helping her during her times of difficulty...

After Spanish I talked to Edgardo, the director of our department, about a situation regarding my friend Jomarie and how she's not thinking straight this semester, and seeing how we could help her out. Anyway, he told me that next semester they're adding Russian!!! ^_^ So he obviously forced me to take the class hehehe not like I mind ^_^ And gave some good news regarding German II and the possibility of them teaching it next year *crosses fingers*

Italian class passed by very slowly...it was nice since the professor's so adorable, but I was really sleepy when he was talking about the verb "avere" he said the verbs we'd be tackling this week and the next so we can have another test possibly on next Wednesday...*sighs* Aww...but he was worried about my asthma, so he earned 24pts with me =P

Well that was my day ^_^ Now I have to work on the English 300 presentation. Take care lovies!!! ^_~

Let's end with a picture of the boxy cow, masterpiece by Nestor Gomez ^_^

I had to trace the cow because the pic was blurry ^^;; Nestor was just about to erase it hehehe ^_^


Love, Niimu

Hectic Hecticness

It has been such a long week, luckily the week's done but the work isn't. After the 2 free days the University gave to us due to the heavy rain and not coming in on Thursday, I feel like this week was endless. On Monday I had to take a killer Italian exam (though it was...I suppose, easy since we were able to use the book and dictionary) and I arrived almost 15 minutes late *sighs* On Tuesday I had no idea we had a quiz in Annie's class, so that really took me by surprise unfortunately, but the material was basically everything she has covered up 'til now. I had a literary essay that was due today for English 300, plus I have to do a library search (so I can add references) for yet another assignment for the same class, two assignments actually...on two different authors: Toni Cade Bambara and Gabriel García Marquez. I had a quiz in mom's class today on Machiavelli, which was easy. My English 311 midterm is scheduled for next Thursday, plus we have to show Annie our class portfolio ugh...>_< which is...not up to date...- -;;; On Monday I have a test in Philosophy 312...yeah...I'm swamped with work, I can't wait for next week to be over and done.

Oh, we also had a Spanish test last Monday and it was done in group. It was basically everything I learned during Eng. 224 last semester, so it was easy ^_^ Oh my God, I was paired up with two girls so we could do the test, well...there was one part where we had to do brainstorming (tejido de ideas) and write a paragraph on Fauna. Okay...that was pretty easy right? And we all know what Fauna is, hehehe...Well we were brainstorming "amphibians, mammals, reptiles, birds" and the animals included in those categories. Well one of the girls told me "Fish, where do they go? Mammals?", my eyes just popped out...I started gasping and hiperventillating. Ada Hilda asked me "Naya, honey, what's wrong? O.O" and I just started stabbing my chest with my pen...she got worried and told me to go over to her desk and I told her what my partner said and she just started laughing, bien linda...como que es Ada Hilda ^_^ hehehe...the test was fun.

On Wednesday, we had our Italian class at the computer laboratory. Hehehe I love arguing with the computer in the Tell Me More program ^_^ I've already used this program before with German and French, this was my second time using it in Italian =P I always argue with the computer since it always comes on to me, asking me if I'm pretty, young, single...*laughs* I always tell him "What would my husband say? XD" and he just changes the subject. Well, at one point the program froze on me and Carmelo (who's working in the lab with Lizardo) had to go and help me, well...for those of you that don't know; Since I started in the University last year, Carmelo has been teasing me about my height. He calls me tinkerbell, gnome, elf, dwarf, shorty, midget...yeah...'cause he knows that I'm always trying to look tall XD

At any rate, Carmelo fixes the program and I start doing the "Fill in the blanks" part of the program: Io, Il, Noi, Voi, Esse, etc...I started complaining that Carmelo messed up the program because at one point one of the excercises was: Io sono basso, mientra chi voi siete alti. I am short, while the rest of you are tall! The professor came to me because I cried a little and asked me: "Dulce mio, what's wrong?" "The computer hates me TT_TT he he...says I'm short..." "Ahhh...mala computadora! Le debo meter un puño, no? ^_^" and he patted my head!!! ^//////^ So cute and sweet!

Speaking of sweet professors, Annie was very nice and sweet with me today ^_^ something which is not really very common. Today was so much fun, she turned on the antique overhead proyector and she stared at it and said: "During the last class I saw a massive spiderweb under the mirror of the lightbulb...I guess I burned it when I turned it on o.o" so she turns (or tries to turn) the light on again and suddenly when it finally lights up, there appears a beautiful spiderweb "Oh look, it's still there. It's nice with all that detail and stuff..." and I say "Wow O_O It's beautiful" and I'm trying to see it by stretching on my seat TT_TT and she's like "I know isn't it? Come on, ven aca alfrente if you want to see it upclose ^_^" I shot up from my seat and contemplated the spiderweb and she was smiling at me ^_^ hehehe. Of course, what's Annie without a few insults? "It's amazing...how such a small animal can work to create something so beautiful while you guys..." *insert sarcastic smile here* "Let's leave it at that...we have to teach you guys to think since you won't do it for yourselves, and besides it's not like that spider has to take linguistic classes."

All in all, it was a tough but fun week ^_^ Thanks to those proffesors that manage to put a smile on my face and of course thanks to the support of my beautiful shistas ^_^ I love you all!

PS: I just realized that the last day I wrote was on the 24th ^//////^ No wonder I took my sweet time updating again ^_~ hehehe

24...the best number ever ^_^