Roses all Around...

Today has been such a confusing day filled to the brim with sadness. I learned today that a family member I loved so much, died a month ago...I had been thinking about him and the family so much last month that I would've never guessed that he was already gone, departed from this world. I cried and have been crying for the past 3 hours since the phone call.

Up until I was 16, my family was only my mother, father and grandmother; when we went on vacation, we found the family my mother had been looking for for the past 2 years. We met up with Randy, Nancy, Ben (may he rest in peace)and their lovely families that welcomed these "outsiders" with open arms and let us join them. For that, I am always thankful...

I never knew the love of a family until I met them. I believe that when we all met for the first time, it was at Randy's house in Lancaster; on the following trip, we flew to New Jersey. In New Jersey, the day we were going to fly back to Puerto Rico, we met Benjamin and Nancy. I was kind of scared, I'm not big on going to houses of people I don't know. From the moment we stepped out of the car, I felt just...love rushing through my body. Ben had prepared what I believe to be, the most delicious meal I have ever eaten in my life hehehe the only beans I ever really liked.

I absolutely fell in love with all of them: Nancy, scared me so much and she was so much like my mother (that was freaky enough) but I love her; Jasmine, an only child so of course we got along ^_^ and Ben...teasing me to no end, making fun of me and making me laugh like I hadn't ever before. We left the states with a heavy feeling because we wanted to spend more time with them, but they gave us such a beautiful last night, one that I will treasure for always. Then Nancy and Ben came to visit us here in Puerto Rico, and we spent 2 really fun days together...Laughed, laughed and laughed and formed a strong bond...

These news saddened me a great deal, I'm not one to really shed tears when a person dies but this death, really took me by surprise. Last month I had been thinking about him so much, laughing as I remembered how he made fun of my dislike of vegetables, when the pigeon pooped on my shirt and he told me it was a blessing (yet he STILL laughed at me ^^) when we finished eating and he threw himself on my back and told me to carry him to the car...

February has been the month of the roses, for many reasons which I won't go into right now...

I keep hoping that this is all somehow just an awful nightmare and that I'll wake up, thinking he's still alive.

Rest in peace Benjamin, if I had the opportunity to carry you to the car again; I would do it in a heartbeat. My condolences to all the people whose lives he touched and all his and our family members.